Today marks six months until my and David's wedding date. I'm proud of us. Our connection has proven its ability to withstand a number of issues. We Love each other. And for the first time in both of our lives, we find that moral absolute guiding us, impacting our decisions, and creating within our individual selves a desire to share an eternal embrace with each other.
I believe in our future together. I believe we are better off with each other than without. Do you know how you can tell that you've found "The One"? When you reach the realization that you are not willing to forgo that person. Then ta da! Your little solitary world is thrown completely out of whack. The hard part (and subsequent internal conflict) is forgoing all that is in place in your singular existence that would be damaging to your relationship with that person. Sooner or later, your Love (and desire and need) for your One trumps your attachment to your singular existence. You now have the promise and hope of something greater, something more substantial.
Lessons have been learned and internalized about each other and ourselves. And, we're still together. :) I have added the word "compromise" to my lexicon, and he has added "commitment" to his. Now, I'm working on the concept of allowing myself to be "taken care of." He's learning about the completely foreign concept of a budget. What's important is that we're learning and growing together. What else is important is this:
I cannot forgo that curly-headed, dreamy-eyed guy with the intriguing mind and charming wit. I cannot forgo the way he makes me laugh or the way he looks at me when I've said something other people would find ridiculous. I cannot forgo the excitement I feel (even now) when it's his voice on the other end of the phone. I cannot forgo the sense of falling in Love with him over and over again as I see his efforts to make me happy. I cannot forgo the picture I have in my mind of our children, our life together, our future.
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